At some points, the conversation is just between me and my insecurities. Insecurities always tell me that I am not good enough. Insecurities point their fingers on me. Yet, they seems to always be around. Sometimes, when they are absent, I even crave for them, as if I need them to move forward. How strange?
Where do insecurities come from? and why are they so loyal? During my upbringing, I had encountered who tried to tell me how to be, what is right and wrong that my innocent mind did not know how to process. The fact that I was confused might have implied something.
Having said that, insecurities are like shadows hiding behind, they never seem to show themselves so clearly. Perhaps, with light, they might disappear. Perhaps, all we need to understand ourselves enough so that insecurities do not have a place to stand. Or that we need to come to an understanding that we do not need insecurities to grow at all.
Although insecurities might appear as friends, they might not be good friends. Insecurities do not bring confidence nor intrinsic motivations. Insecurities are just like acquaintances who show concerns yet are not responsible at all for what happens to us.
But, running away from insecurities might not be a way either. They love to see us in be fears. The more we try to escape, the wider their roads are. As we run, they dance. In contrast, the moment when we confront with them directly, they become smaller. Aha, fears make a playground for insecurities.
Therefore, next time, when you hear insecurities around, look for them, say Hi to them, see how they react to it.
