Love is not efficient. That is something new I just learnt. As someone who is result oriented and can pick up things quickly, it is sometimes frustrating for me when my family had not had a concrete plan or when clarity was not reached yet. Likewise, the communication can be broken and not straightforward here and there. It has felt like to share our true thoughts and feelings, it takes some effort and patience. At those moments, I kept wondering whether it is worth to wait?
Perhaps, a better question is what I should be waiting for? For me to be more at peace, for things to land softer, for people whom I love to be ready, or what else? I get it, not everyone can be straight forward and good at dealing with people. However, just because I can do better, does not mean I need to hold myself back. Can I help them maybe? One thing though, seems like to help them, I need to speak their languages, not my language, otherwise, it would be harder for them to keep up.
Life in the end is a journey of preparation. We have prepared to do what we want to do, prepared to meet people we care and love, prepared to give back, prepared to create and share, prepared to deal with adversities and challenges, prepared to go to the end and to smile when looking back, and prepared to realize who we are as a person. Why not be a little more prepared every time? Preparing will give us a sense of moving toward our goal without being too attached to it.
Over time, I get more comfortable of transforming my frustration into positive actions through such questions as “What can I be doing while waiting?”, “Should I keep wondering? Should I sharpen my speech”, “Should I do something else?”. The list can go on which will fill up your minds with goodness and excitement. That way, we can still be ourselves and not to be more clingy toward people.
Slower sometimes is better.
